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Post by kittenhart on Dec 20, 2008 23:52:58 GMT -5
There are times when I really do hate you, for what you did to me ... for what I allowed you to do to me. I guess it happened slowly, a gradual process so I didn't think anything of it other than "This is marriage. You signed up for it. Deal." But there are times when I want to slap myself out of it, if only I could go back in time.
There are times when I am so angry that I literally can not breathe normally, cannot think straight, cannot talk myself down from this mountain of rage.
It passes quickly. I know it will pass...
But for now I am stuck with it. Great. Happy Fuckin' Holidays You Selfish Fucking Asshole. I am left to face endless gatherings of smugly happily married couples with their beautiful children excited about Santa.
Merry Christmas and Fuck You.
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Post by crushy on Dec 21, 2008 10:33:57 GMT -5
Merry Christmas and Fuck You. Oh my gosh!! You are so adorable, k. I know you were not trying to be funny, but way too cute...
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Post by jules on Dec 21, 2008 12:11:00 GMT -5
Honey, I know just what you mean. Merry Fucking Christmas to you, too. ;D
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Post by kittenhart on Dec 21, 2008 12:38:28 GMT -5
oh man, at least I didn't drunk dial him and leave this message on his machine... Thanks for letting me vent guys. (I am better today.)
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Post by Phoenixx on Dec 21, 2008 21:20:11 GMT -5
What a great post, Khart!! Hope you are still feeling better
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Post by amola on Dec 22, 2008 14:21:49 GMT -5
jeez, kittenhart, i'm beginning to wonder if you and i aren't twins separated at birth.......or if we married the same guy. i swear i could have written that myself!
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Post by RO on Dec 22, 2008 15:46:36 GMT -5
K- Thanks for the drunk dial on Saturday night...so, very sorry I missed it.
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Post by prairienomad on Jan 2, 2009 19:36:43 GMT -5
Hey Kittenhart ... hi again. I know it's been a few days since this was posted. I hope you're feeling better, and had a good holiday.
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Post by kittenhart on Jan 2, 2009 23:21:21 GMT -5
Hey Prairie, long time no chat! Yes my holidays were okay....I did not do a repeat of last year's "showing up drunk" and I did get a chance to reconnect with a few family members I dearly love who I don't see often enough due to distance....so I am feeling better. I even went on a date tonight...it kindof fizzled, but at least I feel like I'm making the effort to meet people and maybe get 2009 off to a better start than last year. The anger comes and goes out of nowhere, but less often now...so maybe I'll get over it eventually. I hope you and V had a good Christmas.
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Post by gdgross on Jan 15, 2009 17:58:04 GMT -5
LOL, kh.
That's one of the funnier things I've read. Merry fucking Christmas indeed. ;D
In all seriousness, I hope that the anger will fade. It did for me, and I think I'm a healthier person for it. There was a time when I hated my ex with my whole body, thought I could never forgive her, etc. Now, while I still maintain she was selfish and made a wrong choice, I understand that she's human and a fuck-up up just the same as me.
I used to wish ill upon my ex. Then I was indifferent. Now, I think I can honestly say that I hope good things come her way.
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