Post by ionysis on Mar 24, 2008 7:01:48 GMT -5
I am going to fill my life with positivity.
I will try to force myself to act and think as though all I ever feel is happiness, joy, excitement, positivity and hope.
I will NOT become my mother. I won't. I will not let resentment and bitterness rule my life. I will not cage myself in a box of self-pity, anxiety and hurt. I will not protect my heart and my pride with snide comments or accusatory words or expressions of anger, frustration and disappointment.
I will not think about fear or pain or rejection or loss or self-hatred or jealousy or betrayal. I will not think about my own shortcomings or those of others around me. I will not complain. I will not cry. I will not get angry. I will not assume the worst and I will, even in spite of contrary evidence, be hopeful about a positive outcome to every situation. I will project love when I feel bitterness and be affectionate when I feel resentment. I will act as though I am excited about all the little pleasures of life and look forward to enjoyments to come. I will flirt and tease rather than curl up and sulk. I will pretend that everything is normal even when it isn’t. I will enjoy my own company and take time to pamper myself rather than feeling alone.
I will give thanks every day for my wonderful friends and family, for my health, for my job and the comfortable and privileged life I lead. I will try to look for things to laugh at. I will try to be kind instead of surly, charitable not nitpicking, and generous rather than mean. I will try to think of others more than myself. I will return frowns with smiles and anger with peacefulness. I will be polite rather than impatient. I will treat everyone in my life with respect. I will try to give more than I hope to receive.
I will wake up early each morning so as to savour a cup of coffee from my new coffee machine, enjoy the warmth of my shower and be happy with myself for being on time for work. I will try to face work with cheerfulness and not dread. I will seek out the elements of my work which I enjoy and focus on them. I will use my time productively and try to believe in the abilities of my colleagues when I delegate work. I will trust my judgment rather than second guess myself all the time. I will try to make my boss proud of me and take pride in myself for completing my work well and serving my clients with dedication.
I will not drink alcohol which makes me emotionally drained, tired, depressed and fat. I will take my meds and vitamin supplements regularly and I will eat healthily so as to avoid that feeling of guilt and self-hatred I have when I abuse myself.
I will try to rediscover what it is to play, to have fun and to be childlike. I will surround myself with positive people and try to be seen as a positive force in the lives of others. I will play happy music loudly and sing along to it. I will play with my cat. I will watch comedies on TV. I will try to make others laugh and be the entertainer I once was. I will tease and joke rather than quarrel and complain. I will keep a sense of humour and laugh at myself rather than cry because I feel belittled.
I will assume that it is impossible for anyone to reject me, dislike me or not value me because I am amazing, I am fun, I am loyal, I am lighthearted, I am loving, I am warm, I am gentle, I am bright, I am affectionate, I am confident and I am strong.
And I will read this every day.
So there!
I will try to force myself to act and think as though all I ever feel is happiness, joy, excitement, positivity and hope.
I will NOT become my mother. I won't. I will not let resentment and bitterness rule my life. I will not cage myself in a box of self-pity, anxiety and hurt. I will not protect my heart and my pride with snide comments or accusatory words or expressions of anger, frustration and disappointment.
I will not think about fear or pain or rejection or loss or self-hatred or jealousy or betrayal. I will not think about my own shortcomings or those of others around me. I will not complain. I will not cry. I will not get angry. I will not assume the worst and I will, even in spite of contrary evidence, be hopeful about a positive outcome to every situation. I will project love when I feel bitterness and be affectionate when I feel resentment. I will act as though I am excited about all the little pleasures of life and look forward to enjoyments to come. I will flirt and tease rather than curl up and sulk. I will pretend that everything is normal even when it isn’t. I will enjoy my own company and take time to pamper myself rather than feeling alone.
I will give thanks every day for my wonderful friends and family, for my health, for my job and the comfortable and privileged life I lead. I will try to look for things to laugh at. I will try to be kind instead of surly, charitable not nitpicking, and generous rather than mean. I will try to think of others more than myself. I will return frowns with smiles and anger with peacefulness. I will be polite rather than impatient. I will treat everyone in my life with respect. I will try to give more than I hope to receive.
I will wake up early each morning so as to savour a cup of coffee from my new coffee machine, enjoy the warmth of my shower and be happy with myself for being on time for work. I will try to face work with cheerfulness and not dread. I will seek out the elements of my work which I enjoy and focus on them. I will use my time productively and try to believe in the abilities of my colleagues when I delegate work. I will trust my judgment rather than second guess myself all the time. I will try to make my boss proud of me and take pride in myself for completing my work well and serving my clients with dedication.
I will not drink alcohol which makes me emotionally drained, tired, depressed and fat. I will take my meds and vitamin supplements regularly and I will eat healthily so as to avoid that feeling of guilt and self-hatred I have when I abuse myself.
I will try to rediscover what it is to play, to have fun and to be childlike. I will surround myself with positive people and try to be seen as a positive force in the lives of others. I will play happy music loudly and sing along to it. I will play with my cat. I will watch comedies on TV. I will try to make others laugh and be the entertainer I once was. I will tease and joke rather than quarrel and complain. I will keep a sense of humour and laugh at myself rather than cry because I feel belittled.
I will assume that it is impossible for anyone to reject me, dislike me or not value me because I am amazing, I am fun, I am loyal, I am lighthearted, I am loving, I am warm, I am gentle, I am bright, I am affectionate, I am confident and I am strong.
And I will read this every day.
So there!