The lack of human touch (for those of us without children to hug) is kindof brutal, to be truthful....
Yes. Initially I was so hungry for human contact, I just wanted to kiss my trainer after she stretched me out after our sessions. (Yes, the guys at the gym would have probably loved that. ) But you get used to it... for better or for worse...
1. It will makes you apprciate it so much more when that feeling does come along again - and I think we all HAVE to believe that it will - life would just be too miserable for words if we couldn't hope for that.
Yes, you really do appreciate it more fully. I feel that way now in my life.
2. It makes you realise that being loved and made love to isn't actually as vital to your survival as air or water or food despite what we may think at the time. Yes, life feels like it is missing something when you don't have it but it IS possible to go on, exist, live and even be happy without it.
And it is here you get a chance to really experience your inner strengths, and get and honest glimpse of your weaknesses.
3. It makes you more careful about who you choose to spend your time with and give yourself to. Once you've felt that closeness and been without it for so long that it feels like a black hole inside you you realise that substitutes just aren't enough and in fact make you feel worse about yourself. When we feel that longing for true intimacy and love it is because we aren't self-medicating with plecebos (one night stands or casual flings). Better to feel that longing than a sense of mild self-disgust or the jaded cynicism which seems to rub off on you when you accept less than you know you deserve.
Life is so fleeting and we spend it so many times on foolish things. This was so beautifully written and described.
You have expressed yourself so beautifully here Ion. I can totally understand a lot of what you are saying, it applies in various places in my life.
You have a gift to be able to see the beauty emerging from the ashes. It is a true strength to be so self aware. Thank you for sharing this.
~'Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain.'~
"You aren't just lying, you're slowing down the progress of all mankind. ..YOU....DOUCHE!! ~Stan~
Sometimes I am more phlegmatic than others. Right now I'd give anything to have someone here to hold me - for whatever reason, and almost anyone would do. Geez. Some days I feel on top of the world and others I'd die to feel not alone again. But you guys know what I mean. Sigh.
“The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars..."