Post by sheyd on Apr 8, 2008 13:17:52 GMT -5
2 years ago today Harry moved to Duluth. We consider this our anniversary (there were some things that happened before he moved that make the time before then not really "real together time"). I was afraid to have him show up, because something awful had happened the night before. I wasn't sure he would want to be here when he found out. When he stepped off that bus and I stepped into his arms, it was like I found home. I was so afraid he would turn around, but he didn't - not then, and not so many times later when he could have.
There have been so many truly beautiful and truly horrible things we have gone through over these last two years. So many times one or both of us has thought about giving up. So many times I have blessed the day he walked into my life. I can honestly say I am more in love with him today than two years ago. I love him more as a person - especially now that I am really getting to know him. I don't know if I will ever know him fully. I don't know if we will ever get through some of the problems we have. I don't know what the future holds...
All I know is today is 2 years since he walked off that bus. 2 years of getting to know the man I value above all other men - even with his flaws. 2 years isn't long enough to know even a drop in the bucket of what I want to know about him. I don't know if we have a forever future, but I know I will work towards that as a goal. I know I will work towards a better me, and a better us, and that I want him as my family. I wouldn't have any problem saying yes if he wanted to marry me, but I now know I don't need it, either. He hasn't left (yet) and that piece of paper wouldn't stop him if he wanted to -- nor would I. I want him, I love him, but I want him to be happy. I HOPE that is with me, and I will work towards that (without giving up myself either).
So... Happy Anniversary, Harry (even though you will probably never read this) I love you more than I can say.
Shey
There have been so many truly beautiful and truly horrible things we have gone through over these last two years. So many times one or both of us has thought about giving up. So many times I have blessed the day he walked into my life. I can honestly say I am more in love with him today than two years ago. I love him more as a person - especially now that I am really getting to know him. I don't know if I will ever know him fully. I don't know if we will ever get through some of the problems we have. I don't know what the future holds...
All I know is today is 2 years since he walked off that bus. 2 years of getting to know the man I value above all other men - even with his flaws. 2 years isn't long enough to know even a drop in the bucket of what I want to know about him. I don't know if we have a forever future, but I know I will work towards that as a goal. I know I will work towards a better me, and a better us, and that I want him as my family. I wouldn't have any problem saying yes if he wanted to marry me, but I now know I don't need it, either. He hasn't left (yet) and that piece of paper wouldn't stop him if he wanted to -- nor would I. I want him, I love him, but I want him to be happy. I HOPE that is with me, and I will work towards that (without giving up myself either).
So... Happy Anniversary, Harry (even though you will probably never read this) I love you more than I can say.
Shey