Post by prairienomad on Feb 7, 2008 22:35:59 GMT -5
Hey you ...
We have been together in person for a week. You seem like a different person. You seem in love with me, and ready to commit, ready to go the distance.
Why am I holding back now? Last night you asked why I seem to be holding back.
The truth is, during our time apart, I hardened my heart. The question is, will my heart soften again? Right now, I feel nothing -- just numbness. Now, I feel like I am like you were before: cold and hard-hearted. So, I can understand how you were before.
Oh God, I want to be able to move forward and to fully forgive. Why can't I? You did not cheat on me. We hurt one another, but it was not unforgiveable.
I did not know this was going to be this difficult.