Post by hoodieprincess on Jul 2, 2008 17:23:04 GMT -5
Okay...So this again is just me kind of talking to myself. hehe Really, I think better when I put stuff down in words than leaving all the thoughts in my head. And, it allows me to just kind of put out whatever is on my brain. I can come back later and re-read and make better sense of it all after the fact. So, here goes...
So, K being here 2 weeks ago was great. It was great to see him and we really had a lot of fun. I think when we are around eachother, it's pretty obvious there is something there. I mean, everyone sees it. And, I think we are each starting to actually see it and acknowledge it as well. I mean, he stayed up until 4am because he wanted to be able to hang out with me while he could instead of sleeping. He told his brother that he noticed that during the weekend and seeimg me, things have changed. And, I laugh because instead of actually doing it, he told his brother after I left for the weekend how much he actually wanted to kiss me. I have to say, as much as I wasn't in shock, I still was. I like this guy--a lot. But, he's in Colorado Springs which is 4 hours away. There is no way he can just keep coming up every other weekend. I can't go down there all the time either. Part of me feels like the logistics of it are working against anything developing other than this major crush or whatever this is.
So, I went on a date Monday night. It was actually a second date with this guy. The first had been months ago and while we've tried a couple times in between, a few things had come up and we had to postpone. I had so much fun. He really seems like a great guy and we have a lot in common. Our date was actually a double-date w/ his sister and brother-in-law. It was awsome really. And, I while he wasn't so sweet it seemed fake, he was great. He laughed because a lot of how he is isn't what I am used to in a guy and he was so shocked (like walking me back across the fairgrounds to the opposite side of where he was parked to my own car, wanting me to not have to pay for things, etc). It was just a lot of fun. He's the one who I went on the date with who wasn't trying to be touchy-feely or pushy before...Just sweet and respectful. He kissed me goodnight and it was one of those ones that about took my knees out from under me. I was shocked. He asked if he could see me again and I said yes.
Now K is coming back this weekend. Total suprise, he told me Monday night...So, while I don't think everything has to have a plan, I find myself asking myself where I go from here...I'm very confused.
So, K being here 2 weeks ago was great. It was great to see him and we really had a lot of fun. I think when we are around eachother, it's pretty obvious there is something there. I mean, everyone sees it. And, I think we are each starting to actually see it and acknowledge it as well. I mean, he stayed up until 4am because he wanted to be able to hang out with me while he could instead of sleeping. He told his brother that he noticed that during the weekend and seeimg me, things have changed. And, I laugh because instead of actually doing it, he told his brother after I left for the weekend how much he actually wanted to kiss me. I have to say, as much as I wasn't in shock, I still was. I like this guy--a lot. But, he's in Colorado Springs which is 4 hours away. There is no way he can just keep coming up every other weekend. I can't go down there all the time either. Part of me feels like the logistics of it are working against anything developing other than this major crush or whatever this is.
So, I went on a date Monday night. It was actually a second date with this guy. The first had been months ago and while we've tried a couple times in between, a few things had come up and we had to postpone. I had so much fun. He really seems like a great guy and we have a lot in common. Our date was actually a double-date w/ his sister and brother-in-law. It was awsome really. And, I while he wasn't so sweet it seemed fake, he was great. He laughed because a lot of how he is isn't what I am used to in a guy and he was so shocked (like walking me back across the fairgrounds to the opposite side of where he was parked to my own car, wanting me to not have to pay for things, etc). It was just a lot of fun. He's the one who I went on the date with who wasn't trying to be touchy-feely or pushy before...Just sweet and respectful. He kissed me goodnight and it was one of those ones that about took my knees out from under me. I was shocked. He asked if he could see me again and I said yes.
Now K is coming back this weekend. Total suprise, he told me Monday night...So, while I don't think everything has to have a plan, I find myself asking myself where I go from here...I'm very confused.