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Post by shattered on Sept 30, 2008 8:54:58 GMT -5
One year ago today -- on September 30, 2007 -- he discarded me from one moment to the next like a piece of human trash, ripping every last shred of my heart and soul to pieces. It was the worst pain I'd ever felt (and I was no stranger to pain), and I thought I would die, I didn't see how I'd go on, I couldn't imagine ever being pain-free again. I couldn't believe how bad the pain was, and how dark and deep the pit that I was in. It almost destroyed me. Almost. I'm back. And today, I can't believe that I am -- happily! -- in love with somebody else. And I really can't believe how little I feel about "him" today. I thought today would be painful. But I basically feel nothing. If I let myself think about his kids, yes, that hurts, and it always will. But for the most part, I've trained myself not to think of them very much anymore. Bottom line: It's a beautiful morning here in the nation's capital (despite the financial meltdown, the government being beholden to Wall Street, and Nancy Pelosi's "bipartisanship"! ), and I'm so happy to be alive. ;D Oh Happy DAYYYYY!!!!!!
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Post by Mel (cherry) on Sept 30, 2008 9:37:57 GMT -5
Rock on with your bad self girl!! ;D
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Post by redskyatnight on Sept 30, 2008 12:28:33 GMT -5
From shattered glass to sparkling crystals.
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Post by shattered on Sept 30, 2008 13:12:57 GMT -5
Rock on with your bad self girl!! ;D Thank you!
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Post by shattered on Sept 30, 2008 13:14:08 GMT -5
From shattered glass to sparkling crystals. Omigosh, I LOVE this!!! Love it, love it, love it!!
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Post by Mel (cherry) on Sept 30, 2008 14:42:18 GMT -5
Perhaps a name change is in order?
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Post by blu on Oct 1, 2008 0:10:08 GMT -5
Oh I agree sparkling is much more appropriate then shattered
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Post by shattered on Oct 1, 2008 9:53:14 GMT -5
Perhaps a name change is in order? Yes, I had thought about that, too -- thing is, I am such a creature of habit. I hate change! Though I am no longer shattered on the inside, I have come to embrace my screen name as my identity on this board. I'll think about this some more. (Always a good delaying tactic!)
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Post by shattered on Oct 1, 2008 9:55:01 GMT -5
Oh I agree sparkling is much more appropriate then shattered How wonderful -- thank you! Sparkling. Hmm, I really like it. See my response to Mel, though. I'm not kidding about this creature-of-habit thing....
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Post by sheyd on Oct 2, 2008 14:48:37 GMT -5
I am with you on the name-change thing... It is an identity, more than a current-identity. Your current-identity is your real name and as such infinitely changeable and changing. This is your ht name, and we know you as you change. Btw - I think it so so wonderful that you are moving forward and on so well. There is so much of a beautiful world out there, and now you know you will always have it again, no matter how bad it gets. (hugs)
Shey
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Post by shattered on Oct 2, 2008 15:13:37 GMT -5
Thank you, shey -- and, omigosh, SHE's BACK!!! Where did you run off to??? Everything OK??? Why did you stay away so long? So abruptly? Without warning? What is the meaning of life? Questions, questions.... Anything to fill us in on??? Hugs shattered (in a sparkling way)
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Post by sheyd on Oct 2, 2008 15:19:12 GMT -5
I did the update down below - and I never really left, I just got so overwhelmed I hid for awhile. lol!
Good to hear that you are the opposite of overwhelmed, and really getting back out there!
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Post by shattered on Oct 2, 2008 15:25:01 GMT -5
I just saw your update and responded. Glad you're back from "hiding"! I hope you are exiting the overwhelmed phase for a while -- it def. sounds like you could use a breack.
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Post by hoodieprincess on Oct 3, 2008 9:10:36 GMT -5
Well, I like "shattered" and it would always be the name I think of you as on here. However, maybe you can look at it this way... Instead of you being shattered (as you may have felt when you got the name), now it can be that you've shattered the persona of the broken woman...You've shattered the idea of the person you thought you were for the amazingly happy and together person you are now...You shattered every image he had of how you would turn out after he left...You shattered the barriers that were holding you back so that you could grow, change, and heal!
I am so happy for you. You really have come so far and I think that's an amazing thing to be proud of!!
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Post by sheyd on Oct 7, 2008 13:34:54 GMT -5
Now THAT I like! Change the meaning of the word - now I will hear that in my head when I see the name - very cool!
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