Post by comeawayfromit on Nov 11, 2008 14:05:53 GMT -5
So you leave me for some blonde bimbo who posts her every move on 15 different blog sites? Not only does she have a mustache in most of the pictures, but she hates smokers and violent films and openly admits that she doesn't shower every day and hates those who do! Is this the best you could do? You are so good looking and charming and for some reason every other girl you've dated has been beneath you. You told me when we broke up that you didn't wanna be tied down and now you're with someone. Well I guess since she lives in St Louis and we live in Chicago that it's easier for you to keep your distance. It's funny how you told me when you broke up with me that even if she lived here, you'd never date her cuz she has too much baggage. That's a laugh. Guess you couldnt' find anyone better huh? I'd like to fully tell you to f_ck off but I won't. You played me very badly and left me high and dry. I got the raw deal and you even admitted that you knew that was the case. So why keep me hanging around? Why invite me over the other day, screw me and talk all emotionally and then tell me we can't be in each other's lives? I think you're confused and going thru an early midlife crisis. I tried to tell you this but you exploded. Yeah you're really cured of all that depression/anxiety. Your therapist must be an absolute genius to tell you you are handling everything well. The fact is you're a COWARD. You saw how serious things were getting and how you were starting to "settle down" and it scared you. So now you're with Ms Bible Banger Mustache Woman who apparently isn't doing her job in bed from what I saw on Saturday. Maybe Jesus wouldn't like it if she actually knew how to please her man. Someday you'll get over this crisis and maybe you'll turn to me. I don't know if I'll be there anymore. How could you leave me for that? Honestly, she is not even a flash in anyone's pan. Obnoxious. I hate you for me having to go thru this. I'm sick of it. It's been 5 months and I want to be better and feel I have been getting better. But just when I start to forget about you, you text or call or whatever. You give me just enough to keep me hanging on. Why do you do it? If it's that you want to sow oats and then come back to me, tell me! I get it. We were together since we were 19 so I totally get it. But don't act like I don't matter or one day tell me you think of me alllllllll the time and the next tell me that was a mistake and that you were just trying to reassure me. What is your problem? Why are you such a goddamn pussy? You need to grow up and figure out the fact that you f_cked me over and owe me a major apology. But of course I'm weak and if you called right now, I know I'd answer. I still feel you're my soulmate but I guess it wouldn't matter for you to hear that which is why I'm writing this on an unsent letter message board.