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Post by Phoenixx on Dec 30, 2007 20:28:48 GMT -5
Sometimes I think I'm making great strides. Most times in fact, I'm happy with life, I'm doing so well. I look better than I have for a long time, I'm so much happier than I have been, my social life is booming, work & study are going great. But sometimes, just once in a blue moon, it still feels like I'm faking. Each time I feel like I'm just completely useless, that if I even *think* about my break up I'll completely break down again. Maybe its just tonight, but I'm just sitting scared to death that this happiness, this new lease on life is all just in my mind. That if I really pause I'll realise that I havent moved on, that I'm still the same scared broken hearted person I was 5 months ago. Someone tell me that I'm just having an off evening...
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Post by Sass on Dec 30, 2007 22:09:47 GMT -5
We all have off evenings. Matter of fact I am having one tonight. The good thing about it is we can wake up in the morning and at least try to have a better outlook on things. My problem is I start out in the morning really determined to not think about things and to have a better day and by lunch time that is shot all to hell and I am right back to where I started the night before. Then, I try again the next day. I am hoping that eventually it will work. Or at least last until after lunch. And then a bit longer and so on until I can think about something other than the pain love causes. Good luck and I am right there with you.
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Post by RO on Dec 30, 2007 22:59:30 GMT -5
I think everyone feels that way from time to time. Moving on after the loss of someone isn't easy and you will have set backs. The important thing to remember is that you are not alone and keep in mind all of the progress you have made. Plus, I think the holidays stir things up a bit. How can they not? Hang in there. '08 is right around the corner and I think it will be a good year for us all. ~remainingoptimistic
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Post by kittenhart on Dec 30, 2007 23:11:43 GMT -5
But sometimes, just once in a blue moon, it still feels like I'm faking. Each time I feel like I'm just completely useless, that if I even *think* about my break up I'll completely break down again. I feel like this often but then I remind myself that it's okay, it's still a pretty fresh wound (almost 5 months for me too) and that it has got to start feeling better and getting easier as time goes by, it just has to. And I know that many days, I now get through most of the day without thinking about him and the split, until the very end of the day sometimes....soon maybe I'll be able to go a couple of days without it bothering me Maybe? I hope. It's not "fake" it's just unfamiliar and transitional...soon the happy feelings are bound to feel more permanent.
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Post by Phoenixx on Jan 1, 2008 15:35:42 GMT -5
Thank you guys. You're right. Im feeling much better today and yesterday. Its 2008 - new mentality and new courage...right? Thanks you guys....
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Post by super on Jan 1, 2008 15:42:38 GMT -5
I'm feeling that way today. I just feel weepy. I don't know what it is. I guess with the new year you start thinking about the future and the past. Right now the past hurts and the future is so unclear. It seems like everything I thought was for sure is gone now.
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