super
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Post by super on Jan 7, 2008 16:06:03 GMT -5
I feel so confused about everything. Everything I used to know for sure now seems to be up in the air.
I wonder if I actually know what love is. I question that we were in love, or did we just stay together for some unknown reason. If he could so easily move on to someone else, did he ever really love me? I know the initial thing that brought us together was lust and loneliness and whatever other reasons you have when you're 18. We did stay together for ten years though, so there must have been something real there.
I used to think books like the Rules were stupid, but now I wonder if love really is a game and not a feeling. I always thought you should just follow your instincts, but I don't even know if I have those anymore.
Is this the numb feeling I've heard about? Will it go away?
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Post by tiredofhiscrap on Jan 7, 2008 19:07:27 GMT -5
I feel so confused about everything. Everything I used to know for sure now seems to be up in the air. I wonder if I actually know what love is. I question that we were in love, or did we just stay together for some unknown reason. If he could so easily move on to someone else, did he ever really love me? I know the initial thing that brought us together was lust and loneliness and whatever other reasons you have when you're 18. We did stay together for ten years though, so there must have been something real there. I used to think books like the Rules were stupid, but now I wonder if love really is a game and not a feeling. I always thought you should just follow your instincts, but I don't even know if I have those anymore. Is this the numb feeling I've heard about? Will it go away? Super I have been married for 20 years, i filed my divorce paperwork Dec 26th. It is hard i feel numb, i also am doubting myself more and more everyday. He keeps saying that i said things i didnt, he has almost convinced me that i really said them, I am trying to do the no contact rule, but with kids at home it isnt easy. and i refuse to be the wife that keeps her kids away from there father. Good luck to you, i hope that this feeling goes away, for the both of us.
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