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Post by J (Hot Mess) on Feb 26, 2008 23:22:43 GMT -5
Two Years tomorrow since he walked out. Im still not over it. He has a whole new life. I wish I didnt still love him the way I do, you know? Its been way too long. I wish I didnt know that tomorrow is some stupid anniversary of sorts. Its nothing. Its just a wednesday in February...another random day. But then why do I feel like puking and like theres a cinder block on my chest?
Oh what a stupid girl. What a stupid, stupid girl. Holding on to the past like it would do me any good. I only have myself to blame now. Its all on me. I am not looking for pity. Im just so angry with myself and dont know what to do with it. Dont even respond, seriously. I just wish that tomorrow would seem like just another day to me.
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Post by sheyd on Feb 26, 2008 23:36:00 GMT -5
I am not responding, ok? I am just hugging you (because you deserve it!)
(((((((((HUGS))))))))))))
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Post by kittenhart on Feb 26, 2008 23:42:57 GMT -5
Ah J, We all only have ourselves to blame....much as we'd like to blame others. We've all been selectively blind, held on too long, fought for things that weren't worth it in the end....it doesn't make the pain hurt any less. There will be a time when you will realize out of nowhere that you have moved on....don't discount what you feel and don't shut yourself off to signs. They are all around you. The signs, that is, (if you can get past the pain : khart
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Post by ionysis on Feb 26, 2008 23:53:40 GMT -5
Will be thinking of you honey.
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Post by Phoenixx on Feb 27, 2008 6:36:34 GMT -5
((hugs)) sweetie....
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Post by J (Hot Mess) on Feb 28, 2008 1:43:51 GMT -5
Well that farking sucked. Why are memories so hard to get rid of and days like that so meaningful when they should be meaningless. My brither actually yelled at me in an email that I even mentioned I was kinda upset about it. Guess I wont be telling him anything more!
Thanks for the support my friends,
~~J
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