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Post by hoodieprincess on Nov 20, 2008 13:56:45 GMT -5
...And I just want to cry. He's so little. I don't want him to go away over vacation. I know he's excited to see his baby brother but I wish I could just keep him. The selfish side of me says ass-hat doesn't hold to his side of the court orders so doesn't that make them null and void? If he doesn't follow them, why should I? I just am sad and moody and my eyes hurt like the tears can just start coming at any random moment.
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Post by amola on Nov 20, 2008 14:00:24 GMT -5
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
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Post by rocko on Nov 20, 2008 14:51:21 GMT -5
((((HUGS))))
So what are your plans with your other little rascal while T is away?
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Post by hoodieprincess on Nov 20, 2008 15:12:09 GMT -5
L and I are going to spend some good, quality girl time together this weekend. We are going to work on finishing unpacking her room and we're going to rearrange it. We are going to have some of our girlfriends over Saturday for lunch and to hang out. Sunday will be movie morning and we are going to just lay around in my king size bed and watch movies together.
Monday and Tuesday she'll be at daycare while I'm at work. She goes to her dad's Wednsday and I won't see her again until the next Monday evening.
So, Thanksgiving with no kiddos this year.
I am trying to make the most of it and remind myself that I get to have a weekend alone with no worries about babysitters. I'm already making plans to go out with a guy friend Friday night. I have a birthday party that weekend too.
I think most of it is just watching my little 6 year old get on a plane to fly all the way to Tennessee alone. It makes my heart drop to my stomach every time they take him from me to board him. I sit at the gate until his plane leaves and it's almost a hopeless feeling because I know if anything happens (even the plane being diverted, there isn't anything I can do). He's so small...
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Post by shattered on Nov 20, 2008 16:12:01 GMT -5
Oh Hoodie, I think I can imagine how hard it must be to see your little son leave. I am sorry.
Will you talk to him on the phone while he's with his dad?
Also, your activities with your daughter sound wonderful.
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Post by redskyatnight on Nov 20, 2008 16:44:05 GMT -5
Yikes! Watching them get on a plane.....that's got to be tough, but I'm sure the staff take excellent care of him and he gets lots of attention and knows you love him. Maybe you can give him a small toy to play with on the plane, so he will feel like you are with him. Then you can feel like you are with him too.
Holidays are tough when the kids leave. You sound like you have a plan and I hope you have fun.
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Post by rocko on Nov 20, 2008 16:54:30 GMT -5
What about a stuffed lion for being so brave...he can snuggle it and think of you while he is away, too!!
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Post by hoodieprincess on Nov 20, 2008 17:25:14 GMT -5
The staff does take very good care of him and I've lucked out in the sense that he loves getting to fly alone. It makes him feel big and brave because he gets time all by himself with no parents and doesn't feel like he's got a babysitter. He gets headphones and watches whatever he wants. He sits in the front of the plane and gets special attention while there. He loves it. He has a bear he flies with and I always give it lots of kisses and hugs to "store" for him so if he gets scared or misses me, he can kiss and hug his bear to get the ones I left for him.
Just the same, it's always a tear jerker to wach him take the hand of the person boarding him and watch my little guy stroll down the walkway into the plane without me.
I will get to talk to him while he's there. His dad is pretty good about that. And I keep reminding myself that there is nothing better than starting to see passengers unload off the return plane and then seeing my little man come running up the walk to give me a hug when he gets back.
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