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Post by finding on Jul 27, 2008 22:24:31 GMT -5
It has been a year since the ex passed away. I had a terrible night's sleep last night, thinking about where we were and what the kids and I were doing that night. I still remember the look on my daughter's face once it sunk in what we were saying.
The man I am seeing has been wonderful through it all. He knows bits and pieces of what life was like with Robbie, but has given me the space to deal with my feelings and the anniversary of his death.
I showed up at his door today, I couldn't let the kids see me so upset. He held me while I cried and then reminded me of what I have now and how amazing these kids are. For so long I heard what a terrible person I am and that I wasn't a good parent. He watched my oldest boy yesterday so I could spend some time with the other two. He's gone on and on about how well B was and what a great time the two of them had together.
It reminded me of what Robbie wasn't to the kids, especially B, and how far we have come. The kids took today well, I wish I could have said the same for me.
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Post by gdgross on Jul 28, 2008 12:17:26 GMT -5
Glad you've got some good support; hopefully as time passes thing swill get easier.
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Post by shattered on Jul 29, 2008 16:45:26 GMT -5
Finding -- what emotional upheaval! Good, bad, sad, tragic, hopeful -- overwhelming.
I am glad you have wonderful support and children.
(((((Hugs)))))
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