My Story--Once and For all

[comeawayfromit]

I agree with you guys. I really do. Something monumental happened the other day and it pushed me to the edge of oblivion. Now, I'm not going to make excuses. I went and gave him a birthday card on Tuesday night and by Wednesday, I heard that his new girlfriend is posting crap on her website about me saying stuff like I'm up to the challenge. Don't think you're fooling me. I know you're looking at my web page. blah blah blah. So I called him and asked him to tell her to stop and he hung up on me and immediately texted me and said "don't ever fucking call my house again." Well I immediately knew she was there and texted him and said that the two of them need to leave me the hell alone since I'm the one who got hurt and they need to seriously stop. He of course turned off his cell but I don't care. So yesterday afternoon, I emailed him and said "Don't ever contact me again. You are dead to me." It felt great. (It also felt great to know that he read and reread my email a couple times---you can see when read on aol). But I am not expecting anything to make a difference with him. He's a selfish bastard who invited me over to screw around and then two days later on the day I gave him a birthday card, tells me never to call again. I know he's painted this picture with her that I am a psycho ex who can't move on to cover his own ass. So basically he sacrificed me for her and I'm so done you guys. Throughout this breakup, he's supposedly gone out of his way to not hurt me and I've seen selfishness from him but not deliberate hurt. In this case, he condoned her BS behavior with posting nasty things to me and so he deliberately set out to hurt me and make me look like a fool. Resolved: I will never speak to this person again and my life is better without him. If he tries to contact me, I will tell him to go fuck himself because there's nothing he can do that will make me want to go back to him. I am simply too good for that.

[shattered]

Comeawayfromit,

I am so sorry you have to go through this -- but do remain strong! When you start feeling weak or doubtful about whether you did the right thing, *re-read this message*!!

Good luck to you, dear. You will be OK, I know you will.

Shattered

[comeawayfromit]

Thanks Shattered. Oddly enough, I feel alright. Maybe that'll change but I feel ok for now.

[hoodieprincess]

Here is the only thing I can say at the moment...

One of the most difficult personal obstacles is admitting to yourself fully that you will probably never have answers to the questions you want answers to. You feel you deserve them, I know. And, it is hard to not go round and round in your head wondering all the different answers that might come of those questions. But, some things are better left unanswered even if we think it's going to kill us to not know. And, some things, well, some things we just won't know. I can't tell you how much I can relate on that.

Besides, I know you're trying very hard to be mature about this. He isn't and neither is she. Maybe they are more meant for eachother than you thought...

The other piece of advice I have to give is to just stop. Stop texting, stop calling. Don't check web pages. Don't answer if he calls. Don't text. At some point, you just have to throw your hands up, walk away and be done with it. It sounds like right now is a pretty good time.