My selfishness

[redskyatnight]

Nov 20, 2008 9:33:09 GMT -5 JimB said:

There is absolutely nothing preventing you from having your own celebration, with all the trimmings, whenever you like.

Nov 20, 2008 10:31:07 GMT -5 sheyd said:

Though true - it isn't the same, not to me. Thats great if it is for you or anyone else, but we each value different things, the timing on this holiday matters to me. If forced by the courts, of course I will still have Christmas on a different day with my kids, and make the best of it I can, but I will spend the actual Christmas in a sobbing puddle on the floor.

I know how you feel on this one Shey - Last Christmas, my kids were with Dad from the last day of School until 1pm Christmas day. I was a total wreck, depressed, miserable and unable to motivate myself to do anything.

It was the lonelist Christmas I have ever had. I'm trying to change my mind set this year and look forward to my solitude. I'm going to check out some Movies and veg out in peace. I don't know if it will work, but it's what I'm trying this year.

[sheyd]

I am so sorry you had such a hard time! You are having the right attitude, I hope this year is better... When it isn't the way you want it, all you can do is make it the best you can!