Remember when... Nov 19, 2008 0:02:06 GMT -5
Post by comeawayfromit on Nov 19, 2008 0:02:06 GMT -5
Remember when I supported you when you were out of work for 2 years? How tough it was for you and how emasculated you felt when I had to use my credit card to go to the movies? yeah you made up for it once you got your fancy corporate job and seemed to forget all I'd done. Remember all the times I drove up to see you at NIU in the middle of the night just to bring you packs of smokes or give you money to buy your meds? All the miles I put on my car to sit in a cramped dorm room with your drunken room mate. Do you remember all the times I drove to your house at 4 am to assuage any jealous fears you had about me hanging with other guys? Do you remember when you told me you were going to transfer out of the Computer Science Program into the Acting Program? Nobody supported you but me. Did I agree with it? Not necessarily but I supported you cuz I knew it was important to you. Remember when your parents threw you out of your house the day before your birthday? I let you stay with me and then on your birthday got a special dinner and cheered you up. Remember when I sang that song your voicemail? How much it meant to you? All the times I brought you special things just because? All the times my own mother gave you cash when you were in school and broke? All the dinners they invited you to and treated you as their son/brother? The hours we spent recording/writing music together and making the films you wanted to make. You'll tell me I didn't support you in that but you're full of it. We have the films on youtube to prove it asshole. So I got shrewy in the last few moths of our relationship. I was so damn lonely Pat. You were gone every weekend and when you were there, you were on the PC or doing other things. I felt so alone. I always felt we had something that nobody could ever know or understand. Thought you felt that way too until Terra came along. She must be something special to you now and I can't say that I hope it works out. I don't think it's fair that you have virtually never been single or without prospects. I am the one who is left here with memories of you and all the times I showed my love. You think I took you for granted. Maybe I did for awhile but I always went to bat for you and put you first. Can you say the same? Yeah I didn't think so.