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Post by super on Jan 14, 2008 12:16:43 GMT -5
Today I'm having a bad day. I had a great weekend but I'm tired, I'm frustrated about some things and all I want to do is lay in his arms and tell him about it. I miss him so much. I wish it could stop. I want to be in a place where I just want somebody and not him all the time.
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Post by RO on Jan 14, 2008 12:19:59 GMT -5
Today I'm having a bad day. I had a great weekend but I'm tired, I'm frustrated about some things and all I want to do is lay in his arms and tell him about it. I miss him so much. I wish it could stop. I want to be in a place where I just want somebody and not him all the time. Super- You are going to feel this way from time to time...but look at what you just wrote... You want somebody...and not him all the time. Maybe you need to take some time and focus on you. YOU cannot fill the emptiness you feel with someone else...YOU cannot fill the void with someone else. YOU have to be happy with you before you can ever expect to find and truely have happiness with someone else. Take care of yourself...worry about yourself...move forward for you...
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Post by super on Jan 14, 2008 13:04:01 GMT -5
I know that it's just remaining attachment. I know that I wasn't happy with him for years, and that I am glad to be out of the relationship. He did me a favour by ending it; I don't think I ever could have done it again. It's just so hard that he's gone out of my life. I wonder how someone that you love so much and that loves you so much could not be the right person.
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Post by freckles on Jan 14, 2008 13:05:36 GMT -5
Why did He leave ?
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Post by tiredofhiscrap on Jan 14, 2008 13:15:21 GMT -5
I know that it's just remaining attachment. I know that I wasn't happy with him for years, and that I am glad to be out of the relationship. He did me a favour by ending it; I don't think I ever could have done it again. It's just so hard that he's gone out of my life. I wonder how someone that you love so much and that loves you so much could not be the right person. Your dreams where shattered. the what could have beens keep haunting you. This is how i feel when i need to talk to somebody and i realize that my best friend, lover and husband of 20 plus years cheated on me with a nasty cokehead bit*h. You know you dont want to be with them but you miss having somebody to talk to. I am sorry that you are hurting, Maybe oneday the pain will stop for the both of us.
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Post by super on Jan 14, 2008 13:20:00 GMT -5
Why did he leave...hmmm. I guess I don't really know the answer to that. I think he finally left because he realized he could live without me, and for once his life wasn't totally centred around me. I think he also finally realized that I didn't really love him the way he loved me.
I kind of wish I had been more honest with him in the end about how I felt all along. I also wish I had told him that I knew what he was doing in the two months where he was "trying to decide what he wanted". I guess it doesn't matter though.
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Post by tiredofhiscrap on Jan 14, 2008 15:26:42 GMT -5
Why did he leave...hmmm. I guess I don't really know the answer to that. I think he finally left because he realized he could live without me, and for once his life wasn't totally centred around me. I think he also finally realized that I didn't really love him the way he loved me. I kind of wish I had been more honest with him in the end about how I felt all along. I also wish I had told him that I knew what he was doing in the two months where he was "trying to decide what he wanted". I guess it doesn't matter though. We need to look forward not backwards. We need to learn from our mistakes and take that lesson forward in life. I know that is what should be done, but damn it is hard. I hope you find somebody that you will love you and that you love back!
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Post by super on Jan 17, 2008 14:38:39 GMT -5
It's so frustrating. I just feel on the edge of despair. I wish there was a way to make my brain stop. It's like the default is thinking about him, us, them. I feel okay for awhile then all of a sudden I have a week like this one. I just keep trying to distract myself any way I can, but then I have some down time and it all comes rushing up at me.
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