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Post by jules on Feb 16, 2008 6:59:34 GMT -5
The last time I made this trip I was married. Now I am not.
The last time I planned to go home to work on my marriage. Now I plan to go home to work on my divorce.
The last time I knew that I wasn't missed. This time I know I am missed already by a few.
The last time I was here I went to the movies and was wistful for the romance and the passion on the screen that was lacking from my life. This time I know that these things are still possible.
The last time I had to explain why my husband never traveled with me. This time I just need to explain that there no longer is a husband.
The last time I made sure to be in my room at a certain time fitting his schedule to make my obligatory daily phone calls home. This time I am no longer confined by these obligations.
The last time I watched my colleague with her husband when invited to their home and wondered why my marriage couldn't look as loving as theirs. This time I know.
The last time I worried about the house, the dog, his health, and everything that could go wrong while I was away. This time I know what will be will be.
The last time I shopped in duty free for him, with his requests in mind. This time I'll do so for someone who will appreciate any small trinket just because it's the thought that counts.
The last time I felt trapped, even on the other side of the world. This time I feel free.
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Post by RO on Feb 16, 2008 10:31:21 GMT -5
jules- you are free. you know that. you are well on your way. i know you are starting to look at the world with excitement and not so much fear anymore...that is a great thing. i hope you had a great time last night and took my suggestion. now, you are a beautiful, strong, intelligent woman that will not be held back. you were then, you are now, and you will be forever. hey, take the sidetrip in ca... drive down the coast ! jon said to say a shout out to you and sends you a monkey squeeze. he likes pomegrantes too. i miss you! Once again, beautiful and insightful. Hugs!
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Post by goods on Feb 16, 2008 10:40:10 GMT -5
Best line of your whole post.
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Post by redskyatnight on Feb 16, 2008 13:23:49 GMT -5
Awesome! Way to take life by the horns!
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Post by kittenhart on Feb 16, 2008 14:03:09 GMT -5
Jules, loved your post.....I was hoping your trip was going okay, and it sounds like it has. I hope you do take RO's suggestion and make a sidetrip and drive down the CA Coast ...it is fab! Have a miata day ;D
-K
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