Post by kn3elb4z0d on Mar 12, 2008 14:00:39 GMT -5
Got married way too young I guess. There was a lot of pressure from her parents and the church community, that sort of thing. Still, I could have, and should have, walked away. Stupid.
Four years go by. We have one child. Alls looking more or less ok right up until I lose my job. We move back in with the inlaws for a little while. Not great for the stress levels. She leaves, gets her own place, gets a new guy, and then promptly cuckholds me. I get served a few months after that.
Todays it's 10 years later. I've not dated at all during this time. I've lived in complete squalor paying for the other man's rugrat as well as my own. I didn't drive for 8 of these years.
So last month I got cut loose. I've paid my debt apparently. Free and clear. Trouble is, I'm now so baggage ridden and disgusting to women I don't think there's any hope I'll ever find anyone. I've been told several times by individuals I wouldn't consider dating that I'm not dating material.
And then of course, someone comes along, acts like she's interested, and is just awesomeness all over, which gets me to thinking, wow, maybe I have a chance. Naturally, I took that chance and got absolutely raped. What the hell was I thinking? I should have listened to that little voice that I've had for the last 10 years and never even bothered.
Most of the time I'm a pretty big jerk to people. This started about 4 years ago. I wasn't always this way. I desperately wish I could be the guy I used to be. Good looking, full of potential, always ready with a witty quip, all that good crap.
Moral of the story: don't become me. Get your rear ends to therapy or whatever before you go nuts and it's irreversable.
Four years go by. We have one child. Alls looking more or less ok right up until I lose my job. We move back in with the inlaws for a little while. Not great for the stress levels. She leaves, gets her own place, gets a new guy, and then promptly cuckholds me. I get served a few months after that.
Todays it's 10 years later. I've not dated at all during this time. I've lived in complete squalor paying for the other man's rugrat as well as my own. I didn't drive for 8 of these years.
So last month I got cut loose. I've paid my debt apparently. Free and clear. Trouble is, I'm now so baggage ridden and disgusting to women I don't think there's any hope I'll ever find anyone. I've been told several times by individuals I wouldn't consider dating that I'm not dating material.
And then of course, someone comes along, acts like she's interested, and is just awesomeness all over, which gets me to thinking, wow, maybe I have a chance. Naturally, I took that chance and got absolutely raped. What the hell was I thinking? I should have listened to that little voice that I've had for the last 10 years and never even bothered.
Most of the time I'm a pretty big jerk to people. This started about 4 years ago. I wasn't always this way. I desperately wish I could be the guy I used to be. Good looking, full of potential, always ready with a witty quip, all that good crap.
Moral of the story: don't become me. Get your rear ends to therapy or whatever before you go nuts and it's irreversable.