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Post by Phoenixx on Dec 12, 2008 22:30:24 GMT -5
I just read over the past 9 pages of this thread. I wanted to put what I feel eloquently and like the writer I confess myself to be, but you know what? I just came to this conclusion...
You're stupid.
Now sod off out of my mind.
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Post by Phoenixx on Dec 19, 2008 21:12:42 GMT -5
Why did you message me?
Hang on. It doesn't matter. I'm real tired of you. Of us. Of me, how I feel for you, of you. Of everything. Just tired. That's all I wanted to say.
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Post by crushy on Dec 19, 2008 21:26:06 GMT -5
Why did you message me? Hang on. It doesn't matter. I'm real tired of you. Of us. Of me, how I feel for you, of you. Of everything. Just tired. That's all I wanted to say. You go, Girl...you're in control now. He's been yankin' your chain way too long and you are worthy of more...more importantly...you KNOW you're worthy of more. Memories are just that - 'Memories'. Personally, I found that although I had some fond memories, replacing them w/ new memories after my divorce was the best for me. You've come so far from when you came on our scene. I'm really proud of and happy for you. Crushy  |
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Post by Phoenixx on Dec 21, 2008 21:18:52 GMT -5
T, thank you for your response!! You guys remind me of how far I've come and that is so helpful during the times I am feeling low. I really needed to hear that!! |
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Post by Phoenixx on Feb 3, 2009 17:45:20 GMT -5
You are becoming an after-thought.
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Post by Phoenixx on Feb 12, 2009 18:29:15 GMT -5
I dont put ice-cubes in my tea anymore. I like carrot smoothies. And I eat beetroot. I even put it in salad and n one has a fit that the salad is red/purple. I even eat it out of the jar (when pickled).
So there.
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Post by redskyatnight on Feb 13, 2009 12:26:43 GMT -5
Isn't it amazing the very simple things we change for someone. It's even nicer to rediscover them and take them back into your life, even if it is only pickled beets.
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Post by Phoenixx on Feb 17, 2009 8:28:06 GMT -5
Yes, definitely. It took me almost a year and a half, but I am enjoying a restriction-free life!
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Post by Phoenixx on Feb 17, 2009 8:29:52 GMT -5
I accidentally bought the type of shower gel you used. It really was accidental, I've stayed away from that type (consciously, or unconsciously - i dont know) for a long time. The scent made a lot of memories come back...but bizarelly, apart from a small twinge, I am really ok. In fact, by the time I had come out of the shower, I had totally forgotten about you again.
Progress.
I am glad that word finally has a full stop rather than a question mark behind it.
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Post by shattered on Feb 17, 2009 12:47:01 GMT -5
Phoenixx -- that is progress indeed.
Wonderful.
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Post by Phoenixx on Feb 23, 2009 18:57:54 GMT -5
Thanks Shattered - it's really nice to know people are so supportive... |
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Post by Phoenixx on Feb 23, 2009 19:06:54 GMT -5
S -
Valentine's Day didn't faze me at all. In fact, there was more happiness in reading A's message, than there was sadness in realising you hadn't gotten in touch. Last year, I was devasted. The change is astounding.
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Post by kittenhart on Feb 23, 2009 20:13:06 GMT -5
It is quite surprising the difference a year can make, isn't it.   |
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Post by Phoenixx on Mar 16, 2009 17:07:06 GMT -5
Yes it is  |
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Post by Phoenixx on Mar 16, 2009 17:10:10 GMT -5
S...
I wanted to call you today, but at the same time, I didn't. I don't want to talk to YOU, I want to talk to HIM. I have said this before, but at times like this I feel it that little bit more. I really do miss my friend. I want to call him and prattle about the new job, my fears, exhaustion, my hopes, plans, dreams and desires. I want the way HE (not you) used to listen to me, then in a few words know what to say. I really want to talk to my friend. The difference is, now I know he doesn't exist anymore. For shame.
Anyway. Just had to write it out.
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