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Post by Phoenixx on Oct 9, 2008 9:10:00 GMT -5
Why did you call me the other day? Why did you call, when I have not heard from you for months, when the sound of your voice was so unexpected that there was no reaction in my heart, the reaction came afterwards in waves that are still tugging at me today. Why did you call?
I dont know.
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Post by ionysis on Oct 23, 2008 7:46:37 GMT -5
Hey Phoenix - where have you been lately??
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Post by Phoenixx on Nov 8, 2008 5:25:16 GMT -5
Hey Ion...thank you for thinking of me! I'm okay, a lot of things happening in life. Some for the better, some for the worse. Doing ok though. Heartwise...well, not much has changed but I'm at peace with that. I'm hoping life is blessed for you. Last I remember it was going great.Hope it continued!! (hugs)
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Post by Phoenixx on Nov 26, 2008 13:55:20 GMT -5
S. It's been a long time, huh? I feel should write here but I don't really have much to say. Except...I'm happy. Life is full and busy and extraordinarily crazy and I have never ever been this tired, but...I'm happy. I think of you still. Not so much and not so strongly. Haven't cried in a long, long time. Soon, it will have been a 1.5years since you left. I will see how I feel on that day. I am ok  |
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Post by kittenhart on Nov 26, 2008 19:01:33 GMT -5
It is good to hear the calmness in this post....I am sure when the day comes you will be surprised at how much time has eroded the sting of it. Hugs.
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Post by Phoenixx on Nov 29, 2008 5:09:58 GMT -5
Hey K...thank you so much for thr kind words (hugs). The calmth in those words is definitely not constant at all. I have set-backs all the time. But if I focus on the rest of my life, I am hoping that part will catch up, although it seems stuck right now.  |
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Post by RO on Dec 1, 2008 15:04:29 GMT -5
Moon- You are doing so great. These little setbacks are nothing. I am so proud of you for Saturday...and you will make it til Thursday. I am happy that someone on the other side of the pond realizes what a treasure you are and adores you like I do. I can't wait to hear more about him. Sleep, rest, eat right or I am coming to kick your arse. Bloody hell, I will. We have a date.  |
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Post by Phoenixx on Dec 1, 2008 15:49:19 GMT -5
I would love a date with you anytime . Especially if it involves Colin Firth  Thank you for your words beautiful... (hug) |
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Post by RO on Dec 1, 2008 16:32:08 GMT -5
Less than 6 months... YOU can do it. I believe in YOU. oh, and Matthew Goode too. ok?  Yes, we have a date --- I wouldn't miss it for the world. |
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Post by Phoenixx on Dec 1, 2008 19:55:03 GMT -5
Neither would I! It's my highlight Anytime I get to see you, it's a major bonus. |
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Post by Phoenixx on Dec 2, 2008 20:08:07 GMT -5
S.
I still miss you....I feel like there should be more written here but as usual when I think of you I can't think of anything to say to you, except. "oh well. I'll cope."
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Post by Phoenixx on Dec 9, 2008 9:41:40 GMT -5
I'm having a bad day with you. I just want to stay in bed and think of you. Worse, I want to call you. I won't. I don't know what's wrong with me. I am confused and feeling messed up and I knew I couldn't do it, but I went ahead anyway. *sighs*
I miss you. When will I get over you? It's been a really long time, I like someone else who is safe and interesting and fun and it's not going anywhere and nothing is even happening but that is precisely what I want and I wish I could stop thinking of you throughout it. I wish I didn't want you. I wish...I wasn't sitting here crying.
I always write here with 'wishes' and I thought the past six months had taught me better than that. That I was getting over you and enjoying my life.
But I'm not. I miss...everything about you. And I can't go back. I can't go back.
I'm a glutton for pain. Because I wish you were here.
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Post by RO on Dec 10, 2008 14:30:05 GMT -5
Moon -
Sorry that I wasn't around last night... I hope today is going much better. Si doesn't deserve this... You know this.
Concentrate on the good things. You are amazing and beautiful and we have less than 6 mos. I cannot wait to hear about this new opportunity -- got some news about your previous ideas and will share. I think my contact was quite serious.
Believe. See it. Make it happen. I know you can do it.
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Post by Phoenixx on Dec 12, 2008 22:07:19 GMT -5
*sighs* Thank you, RO. |
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Post by Phoenixx on Dec 12, 2008 22:09:18 GMT -5
S.
Just found an old msn conversation. Oh boy. We spent a LOT of time arguing didn't we?
I feel quite sick at reading it. I don't know why I am having such a hard time with you lately.
Im so tired of it all.
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